Today is the one-year anniversary of the first post on my blog (an important distinction since WordPress congratulated me on the anniversary of my blog a few days ago.) This is also my 65th post! I have really enjoyed writing and talking with other bloggers. I am grateful to every person who reads my ramblings and makes comments.
When I first started writing, the point was to keep track of efforts I wanted to make in order to better things in my life. In keeping with the roots of my blog, I’m going to see how far I’ve come this past year.
1) Cook one new recipe a week and try to make them healthy (I’ve always wanted to know how to cook) – I haven’t been great about this this year, but I have made a few things and have every intention of continuing.
2) LOVE MYSELF (easier said than done) – I have actually been doing better with this. I am making a conscious effort not to put myself down all of the time, although I do have setbacks.
3) Actually go to the gym (I’m going to aim for 2-3 times a week.) Running helps the anxiety. – Still not going to the gym. No day like today, though, so I am making a renewed effort to exercise for both health and anxiety.
4) Take yoga classes. I’ll aim for 1 per week (again, anxiety) – this will be difficult because I don’t like to do group things by myself – This year I started a work study program with a yoga studio so I could get free classes. I have only taken 2 in the 3 months I’ve been doing it, but I have renewed my promise to myself to take a class a week. I took a great stretch and restore class on Sunday!
5) Go to a real concert (I’ve never been) – Still haven’t been, but I’m now dating someone who loves music so that may change soon.
6) Learn to knit (I’ve always wanted to) – And I still want to.
7) Buy some fancy (and matching) underwear – I’ve been thinking about this one a lot lately. I haven’t bought matching underwear yet, but I have gotten some spiffy panties (hate this word) and bras. I’ve been trying to wear underwear that I feel good about myself in. There’s a reason that they call them “power panties.”
8) Date – I have not been on a real date in over a year. Dating terrifies me. Most of the time, I’m happy with my own space and being alone, but at the same time, I’m know that I avoid the whole dating scene because I don’t like it. This needs to change. I need to get out there again. – I put myself out there and went on some dates this year. I took a chance on a guy, and I am now seriously dating Mr. Librarian so I guess things worked out okay.
9) Do some fun-colored chunky highlights in my hair (even temporary) – this could be difficult because I started a new job recently – Still have not done this, but I do want to!
10) Take one risk a month (keep track!) – I did not keep track, but I have been trying to take more risks in my life. I need to continue to push myself with this one.
11) Read (try for one book a week) – I’ll use Good Reads to keep track (maybe try for some classics…maybe not) – I did really well through August, and then it all fell apart. I’m not babysitting as much right now so there is less focused reading time. Final count: 39 books last year! This doesn’t count any book I re-read, and I LOVE to re-read. I haven’t chosen a goal number of books to read in 2013 yet.
11) Draw. It relaxes and centers me so I should put some time into it. – Still something that I want to do. I would love to go to a life drawing class.
12) Actually work on my social anxiety exercises. Part of this is exercising and yoga, but I also need to do the reaffirmations and mediation. – I have come back to these recently because I have hit some roadblocks in my anxiety. They are a renewed focus.
13) Do some photoshop work. I always enjoy it when I do it, so I should make some banners and harrass fanfic authors with them… – In the spring I got a Mac (that I love), but the drawback is that my Photoshop does not work on the new computer. Still need to work on my photoshop skills, though, because it’s good for my career, and I have access to it at work so there’s no excuse.
14) Practice my french. I used to be able to speak it and even studied abroad, so I should get back to that point – I need to do this so that I don’t totally lose it and again, career.
I am also adding:
15) Work on becoming financially independent. I don’t need to have my whole life figured out, but I do need to work more.
16) See more art. I live in a city with so much art, and I don’t see nearly enough of it. The only way I’m going to be able to advance in my career is to see art and network with people.
17) The artist group that I have worked with is going to remain small, and I have accepted that. We are going to be able to put on shows again, but the organization will not grow. I have to acknowledge that and look into new curatorial opportunities.
So that’s my past year. It’s been a pretty good one, and I’m looking forward to more good things in 2013. I’ve decided to be more positive about life and make more of an effort to change my circumstances. It’s time to push myself further outside of my comfort zone.
So join me, grab a glass of wine/champagne/gin and toast to another good year!